Two Ships

“Ships that pass in the night, and speak each other in passing, Only a signal shown and a distant voice in the darkness; So on the ocean of life, we pass and speak one another, Only a look and a voice, then darkness again and a silence."

Aura

Locked up for days, time slipping away,
on my knees I would pray to break free from this cage.
But bargaining for keys, you forget hidden fees.
And wishing for what you're missing ain't the same as living the dream.
And now I'm fighting to stay on this side of the cage even though i know part of me wishes I'd stayed.
Ain't no prophet or rebel or savior or devil could have predicted, fought, cheated or leveled.
A life with potential that's squandered. A comfortable cell is the question I ponder.


Am I a free man or prisoner wanderer? - excerpt from Roswell, New Mexico

Brown headband

Oh brown suade thick headband with embroidered pink flowers. I wore you often as a symbolizing of strength. But I had to let it go because it reminded me of the horrible memories attached to those places and times in my life; even though it was proof I survived. I will never forget you and be reminded daily that I cant get you off my mind no matter how hard I try. I never use you and you take up so much space in my heart and physical life. I'm sad I let you go but I don't want to remember you anymore.

Flying Angels

Feel like I'm going insane
Are there holes in my brain?

The world around me spinning so fast.
Wonder how long this feeling will last.

Up above the world so high when will I be free to touch the sky?

I want to fly, fly away. But in this grave I fear I'll stay.

I need to be set free and finally be with the angels who love me.

Face of an Angel

Notorious

Hes playing with my heart.
Hes playing with my head.
Sometimes I wonder if he wish I was dead.
This court jester game will never cease.
Sick of these lies and playing for keeps.
I want to let go but I'm already hooked.
Forever I stay here -- overlooked.

Keep Your Head Up

I can't help but feel lost still. Am I making the right decisions? What is my purpose? I want to be happy and I try so hard to stay positive but often wonder...am I preventing my own true happiness? So many questions, so little answers. I wish I could explain to loved ones how I really feel. Make them understand me better. Pain, sorrow, worry take over my life. What am I supposed to do? I trust and believe that Jesus helps me everyday. Maybe I am not reading the signs well or noticing the ones that are important. I'm sick of trying to put rhyme and reason into my life. Is it meant to be chaos -my sole purpose to drive myself crazy? No more lies and deceit, I pray the truth will enter the light and set me free.

You never think that you can fly
You'll always swim against the tide
Don't you know your pain is mine?💓